A Butterfly in the Making

As I was praying this morning, the Lord showed me a clear picture of a butterfly. It was cleared to me that I am in the making of a butterfly. One day the beauty of it all will be showed to the world. He is still working on me.

I started of as a caterpillar. My birth of a caterpillar was October 12,1977. I was born in my mother and father. It was then when my stages started. I was crawling around on this beautiful land. Lord protected me from being harmed, stepped on, or even seen death at this time. I am thankful for that.

It was around my first grade year that He started changing me to pupa/chrysalis. during this time I was becoming aware of heaven and hell. In the second grade I expected that I needed to change. John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son that whoever believe in Him shall have everlasting life." I took this verse and prayed to the Lord. He now allowed me to enter the next stage of a butterfly life. Merging from pupa to adult butterfly.

This is the stage I am at. He is still forming me. He has taken me through some deep valleys and I have sat on some tall mountain tops. I have lost two wonderful babies. I had to face some struggles with my third pregnancy. I had to face some great giants with the birth of the child. I was told something that most people loose it when told. I had to watch my child face pain through 3 long surgeries. Yes, I wished that I could have taken the pain away from him. I have to go through the lost of many friends and lost two wonderful men in my life. My grandfathers. I have had to move from a comfortable place to a place where I knew no one. I watch my sister leave her family for many years. I have had to watch my parents separate for many months due to unfaithfulness. Being sexual assaulted by someone that I trusted. Yes, all of this hurts. I wanted to turn away from the Lord. I did not understand why He would allow me to go through. Palms 23:1 is the verse I was brought back too. "The Lord is my Shepard." Yes, He lead me through you it and guided me to the mountain top.

My mountain have included: marrying the love of my life, having two wonderful sons, being involved in a wonderful church, having some of the greatest friends anyone could ask for. I have the opportunity to stay at home with my children. He provides for me each everyday. I have been able to travel to different counties to see His glory. He reunited my parents and my sister back together. My parents now have a good relationship with each other. This is just some of the blessings that I have.

I have been through all of this knowing that my Lord is not through with me. He is always changing me. He is placing all of the colors on me. One day I will be that beautiful butterfly that He wants me to be. I am still in the process of coming out.

I am waiting on Him to be finished with me and call me home. Are you ready for that? If you are not, then you need to pray that the Lord will come into your heart and that He will start working on you. We are all to die one day and that day is when He will be finished with you. You be the butterfly and fly away to the glory land. I am so ready to fly to the Glory Land!!!

Trading Everything to Gain Everything

As I type this blog, I am listening to my Passion Radio Station on Pandora. Man, it is good. This past few weeks have been really tough and gloomy. It all started off with a great guy from Bainbridge taken his life. It was hard seeing great people that I know and have come to love hurt so bad. A few day after that a 21 month old got ran over as her mother was backing out of the yard. To sad, knowing that I have two children and can not even imagine what the mother is feeling. All I do is pray for this family. This past Sunday, while getting ready for church, I received a phone call my sister saying that one of our close friend had lost their 6 day old child. I started feeling the hurt right away. My heart hurts for this family and I just hugged my two babies a little more that day. Yesterday morning I found out one of the prayer warriors of my church just got diagnosed with breast cancer.

As I look back on this, I still see God working in my life and the lives of others. He says that He will never leave us nor forsake us. He knew all of this was going to happen and waits on us to trade in our sorrow, pain and sickness for His joy. I was reminded by this when listening to "Trading My Sorrows" by Passion.

I am so glad that Jesus died to take away our sins and that we can have everlasting life. Think about for a second: EVERLASTING LIFE!!!! This life that we have on Earth is just a millisecond to what we are going to have with HIM one day. We have to live each day as it is our last. We have to serve others each day like is going to be our last day to SERVE. we have to love like it is going to be our last day to LOVE.

I will be back blogging about my testimony tomorrow. I just had to share this today. I felt the Lord telling me to share His love to you. Thank you and have a blessed day in the Lord.

More of You, Less of Me

As I prepare for a Woman Worship, Prayer time, I have been reminded that I need to more of Him(Lord, Jesus Christ). I have been one that has tried things on my own and realized that I can not do it. I have been one that ran from Him, and realized that I can not do it without Him. I have been one that stumbles and I have realized that He picks me up. I need more of Him in my life.

As I has I study Esther, I am realized that I truly need more of Him and more of His anointing. I truly needed Him to face everyday. This week has been a trying week. This is the first time I have been sick with two kids. I have totally had to rely on God to get through it.

Middle School was not a hard time for me. I felt that I had everything going. I was a cheerleader, played basketball, ran track and was in band. What more could a person ask for. I did not seek His face like I should. Yes, I went to church, was in the youth group, but why did I need this God? I could face it without Him. I was popular and an active kid. God was not cool to me in middle school. I can say that I did not think that I needed the Lord.

Then there is high school. My ninth grade seem to be starting off good. I was a cheerleader, in band, baseball manager, and ran track. I did all of this, and was in FFA and showed. There again, who needs God when you have all of this. I did not know that my parents were having trouble with money at this time. My dad takes a job in Georgia. OK, no big deal, he will be back after cotton season and my life will go on as normal. WRONG. Half way through my 9th grade year my parents tell me that we are moving to Georgia. I had just started dating someone that I thought at the time was going to be my future husband, he did too. I had break that off. Could not try out for cheer leading that year because of the move. Cheer leading was my life. Can you say that I cried the hole day of cheer leading tryouts. Was going to move away from my friends that I have known my hole life. What and where was a girl going to turn. I still not see that I needed God at this point. It was the last day of school and I said my goodbyes, got into the truck and here I am now. This is where the truck got me. In Georgia.

My tenth grade year was the worst year of my life. I truly hated it. We started going to church and attended the youth group. I still did not need God. I could do this on my own. I met some friends and I started drinking and partying. A lot. It was fun and a way to get rid of the depression and hate that I had toward my parents. I met a guy and started doing things that a woman should do with their husbands. This too was to get rid of my depression and hate for my parents. My 11th grade year came and it started out better, but still partying and all the other stuff I was doing. I got a call one night from a friend in TX saying that a dear friend of mine had been killed in a car accident. Jeff, was a great friend. One that I loved to be around and did a lot with. I was one of the guys a lot of times. This was a very hard time for me. I was not able to attend the funeral because of where I lived. I was angry at God for taking him out of my life. I guess this accident was the first of many that would happen the next two years. I would attended four more funerals before I crossed the stage my senior year. I became really anger at God. I knew then that I could do it without Him.

My Senior year was great. I had easy classes. I decided that year that I would run for State FFA Vice-President. I begin a year long preparation. I met a lot of people across the state. It was fun. It was time for convention and where the pavement meets the road as my mom would say. I worked hard that weekend. I got voted in my a hair. This is where I realized that I needed God. It was Him that gave me this opportunity and I was going to thank Him for it. That year I dedicated to Jeff. He always pushed me to things and I was doing it for him.

Now that I look back on my high school years, I realize that I truly need the Lord. I pray that it is less of me and more of Him. The Lord gets me through everything. He did back then I did not even realize it until now.

The Elementry Years

I have been through some trying times in my short life of 31 years. I have decided that I am going to share my life with others, but show how the Lord has shown me Favour through it all. My prayer is that this blog will bring God Glory and that He will use it to bring people closer to him.


At a every young age of 8, I expected Christ in my life. I knew at that time that I needed Him and that He was the only way that I could get to heaven and have eternal life. I was baptized at the First Baptist Church in Whiteface, TX. This is the church that would influence my life for every. I remember my school teachers, preacher (Brother Harold), and even the nursery workers. I love that church and I know that God had me there for a reason.


In third grade we moved to a new town and started a new school. I was afraid the first day of third grade. I thank God every day for His strength. I was not the only new girl in the class, there was another one, Cari H. She was just as scared as I was and we became friends that day. She was a daughter of a preacher, and showed Gods mercy on me. She would become a Godly Role Model in my life. Third grade was a hard time for me. I was diagnosed with dyslexia that year. Math and reading was very hard for me to understand and even do. I honestly did not think that I would ever get out of school that year. Thank God for teachers that spend time and help kids with this problem. Many kids drop out of school because of it and if teachers would just have take the time to help, there is a possibility that they would have graduated from high school and maybe even college.


I made it out of 3rd grade. It was time to start 4th grade and a new reading class. During the summer some of the teachers from the school designed a reading class to help kids with dyslexia. The class was set up to help you overcome dyslexia. No you never get rid of it, it never goes away, but you can over come it. I was blessed by a great woman of God that taught the class. Mrs. Smart. I loved her. She had a humble spirit, caring heart, and loving hands. She taught me so much the next 2 years. At the time, I did not realize that God would take her life at young age. She was killed in a car accident in the late 90's. She taught me more than an education, she showed me TRUE FAVOUR in the Lord. She took me in as one of her own. Thank you Lord for her love and humble spirit.

God took me down a path at a young age that I did not choose to go down. I know now that He was shaping me to be more like Him. I went through some tough times. I was teased by kids because of dyslexia. My 2nd grade teacher even wanted me in a Special Ed class because of my inability to read. I know that God gave me strength to handle this, and put people in my life to show me the true meaning of FINDING FAVOUR in Him. Thank you Lord!

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